Moving Through the Matrix

Posted on April 26, 2012 | Leave a comment

What strikes me about ”Being” and this whole experience is that no matter what I ( do ) I am always faced with the illusionary Matrix of this reality.  it is so compelling that I easily lose myself in it and then it takes all that I am and all that I have discovered to find my way out!

Why is this so?  With all that I know I am continually forced to look at this world as it is.  I know that this is not real and yet I have been so programmed and conditioned to believe that it is that I am lured back to it every time I stray.

I am tired of this continual marry-go-round reality and I know at my core that I can break free…  It is not that I want to leave this plane of existence I want to see it from a different vantage point,  One that gives me the big picture view!  I want to know all, “Be” all and experience all that is my good right NOW!

If I am an extension or probe of the whole (source), and I know that I am, then I should be able to experience all that life is right here and now.  What is it that keeps us separate and distant from outr truth?  What foreign installation is it that is not there for our good but for our destruction?  I am ferreting it out…

I’ll get back to you soon with some observations!

In Light

Lorayne

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“Be” Now Day 353

Posted on April 20, 2012 | Leave a comment

Wow, almost a year has gone by and the experiment continues…

I have been experimenting with “Being” and Doing Life at the same time.. I have been enjoying the moments and working through the challenge of the day-to-day tugs and pulls that continue to want to distract me from the moment.

What I have figured out is that life is truly a process… “Being” at its core is the opportunity to experience every aspect of your life, the details as they occur and being present with all of them.

“Being” is not the idea of checking out of life but fully embracing life as it unfolds.

The fact is that we are here in this life so we must discover ways that we can actually exist i  our lives instead of being observers, detached from our feeling about what is happening.  Without getting lost in our thoughts and feelings.  Pulling ourselves back into each moment, enjoying it for what it is and not fabricating what we think it is.  when we really are present we discover that most of what we think is skewed by our past.  Mostly what we think is not real and that is a scary thought.

I will continue to write and share my experiences as they come up, in the mean time go out and Live!

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“Being” Day 289

Posted on February 16, 2012 | Leave a comment

It’s funny every time I try to Do out int he world I keep getting the message to “Be” more deeply, more profoundly, more…

“Being” so so second nature to me now that “Being” any other way is impossible.  I look out int he world and I know that what I see is good and right, right now.  My world is so in alignment with who I am and who I continue to become that I can not even muster up a good sense of indignation or the idea of injustice… there is none.

To “Be” fully means that you are in complete resonance with the flow of universal love that everything that use to put you in fear or pain or grief no longer has the ability to do that.  I have studied Carlos Castaneda for years and I never could fully understand what Don Juan ment when he said that the true shaman must become nothing… Well, until now.  I am completely nothing and it is great.  To explain it would be meaningless.  I can only say that nothing that anyone says or does has any bearing on how I feel.

I am resonating with all of life in a completely different way, I am one with it.  I know that the earth does not need me to be anything other than who and what I am, I know that Source does not need me to be or act any particular way.  Who I am and what I am doing is completely perfect for me, in this moment, no excuses, no justification. 

And everything is perfect!

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“Being” Day 233

Posted on December 22, 2011 | 2 Comments

As the Holidays descend upon us it can be a challenge to remain in your “Being”.  The trick is to take time each day to just “Be” quiet and focus on the present moment.

This being said, I have had to schedule into my calendar my moments to “Be” in order to make sure I bring myself back to my focused state of “Being”.

Life is amazingly accelerated, exciting and just plain fast and I am doing my best to “Be” in every moment in my life and be gentle with myself when I am not.

I wish you joy, peace, love and “Being” this Holiday season and if you find yourself getting a little crazy… stop, “Be” and love yourself!

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“Being” Day 225

Posted on December 13, 2011 | Leave a comment

As I sat down to write I received a call from my niece asking for my help with a cat that she had found in a parking lot who was not doing well and was quite ill. 

“Being” requires flexibility and willingness to “Be” present and allow what shows up to be the determining factor as to where our attention goes.  It means that when you are asked to help you do if you are able, because it is what you must.  A life”Being” is not about schedules and predestined directions but allowing your experience to determine your decisions and choices in the moment. 

For some, this way of “Being” may be too disorganized, chaotic or confusing but for those who are ready and able to fully embrace “Being” this is where life is truly LIVED!

Time to get back to ”Being” and Live fully in service to my niece and her cat, Mew.

I wish you joy and moments of pure bliss.

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“Being” Day 212

Posted on November 30, 2011 | Leave a comment

“Being” is an exercise in staying out of the frenetic, chaotic energy of the world and discovering the rhythm of your soul.

It is an interesting place to find yourself moving in and out of what “Being” is and watching, as if outside of yourself, the movement of your emotions and state of awareness. 

I would not give up one minute of this experience and I am not even sure, had I know how hard it would be to “Be” that I would change a thing.  It has been and continues to “Be” the single most rewarding time of my life. 

“Being” is Good!

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“Being” Day 210

Posted on November 28, 2011 | Leave a comment

This journey into “Being” has pushed every button, stretched every thought, idea and perception.  It  has opened me up to “Being” and living in my Truth like nothing else could or possibly would.

My emotions have been running amuck and I am all over the map in my perceptions as I try to comprehend the immensity of this undertaking and the results that have been opening up for me. 

I have also noticed that I have no interest in rescuing old feelings, beliefs and habits that at one time I knew were who I was, to my core. 

How is it that so much change could happen in the span of 8 months?  I feel as if I have lived several lifetimes and there is still so much to learn and so many ways to grow.

So much is falling away, so much challenge, strife and struggle… There is a decided lack of interest in pretending to like or “Be” something or someone that I am expected to “Be”. 

There is no room for inauthenticity and no room to go backwards.  I am so far  into “Being” that I am it with everything I am.  I can only move forward in each moment and experience it fully, deeply and completely.

I am not sure what this experiment will continue to bring me as I press on but what I have received so far is immeasurable and priceless. I hope that you too are finding your own journey into “Being” so profound that you are changed and for the changing you are released from your past and eased into your future.

Happy travels, I hope to meet yout along the path!

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